Quotes I like

Birthday

Turning 21 and turning up the coffee mug!

Kayla not Red

There was a time when I didn't know,
   My heart was un-jaded and pure,
A time before I knew the world was mean and cruel,
   My faith was unshaken;


There was a time when I didn't know about the pain and agony,
   Before morphine drips and hospital doors,
A time when your days were not numbered and life was at our fingertips.

There was a time when I brought you McDonald's round chicken nuggets,
    Instead of Sunflowers to  adorn your grave.

There was a time when I didn't know you....
    I didn't miss you then at all.

Black coffee

My philosophy on life has always been that black coffee can fix anything...now I'm not so sure. There is pain that consumes your whole body...physically, emotionally. It's the pain from losing someone you love; whether it's death, a breakup, long distance separation...it's an all consuming pain. I am a people pleaser and I suck at it. I don't make mistakes often, but when I do. OH BOY they are huge mistakes...mistakes that make up for all the little ones that I have missed over my teenage years. I know that no one is perfect, and that I serve a faithful, loving and forgiving father. I sure am glad. Prior to the last 72 hours, I have never broken a heart before and I never thought I could. I stand corrected. I broke a heart, squeezed it, and trampled all over it. In breaking a heart, my heart is broken to the point where I shake and feel sick...constantly. So does he. Black coffee today couldn't fix the pain of thinking about his hurting heart...the disappointment I brought him. Black coffee for once wasn't enough.